2011 year in review, 2012 new year goals, and 2011 book lot
Posted: December 31, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement, My good days. Diary/log, My reviews Leave a comment »Happy New Year everyone! I’m going to review my last year, set my 2012 goals, and give you my 2011 reading log, all in this one entry. I am also going to make an effort to write in shorter paragraphs and say what I need to say with fewer words.
Winter was cold. My skating was solid up until January and then it was sporadic practically until April. My memory is kind of hazy of January through March 2011, but I guess nothing traumatic happened.
In late April I took a solo trip to Las Vegas. To say it was a spiritual journey would be a stretch. But it was important for me to travel by myself. I made my itinerary and did what I wanted. When you travel with people there is always a compromise, but by myself I was able to do things I wanted. I skated every day, saw nature sites, and had nights out. I’d like to travel more, but not in 2012, I need to get to where I can pay for my trips, and not charge them. Now I want to travel, whereas before my Vegas trip I thought I didn’t have an interest in going places. Here is my ridiculously long blog entry after the trip. {Vegas blog entry }
In spring I skated quite a bit, but a lot of my focus was in my library work with advocacy against the budget cuts. Aside from the yearly budget threat and a low materials budget work is going well. I’ve been at the same location, and have been able to concentrate on improving services. I get a lot out of work and feel that librarianship is the career for me. Here is an advocacy blog I wrote about this year’s read in. {24 hour read in }
In June I was suppose to go to Toledo for a full week of vacation. I planned to skate, read, write, and hang out. My parents changed that when they say they needed help cleaning out the farm in Virginia. So I flew into Detroit, and we drove down to Virginia. It’s beautiful down there, and I’m glad I went. Here’s my entry with a lot of good pictures. {Farm entry }
Over the summer it was beastly hot and affected my skating big time. I remember on some days only being out for an hour or less, being winded, and sweating profusely. I did not skate as much this summer as I planned too. In August I vacationed down in Florida with my whole immediate family, it was a great time. I try to read a lot on my vacation, and here is the blog entry I wrote about my Florida vacation. {Florida reading }
September, October, November, and December had lovely weather. I think after a lull I’ve finally started to progress some at skating and I’m having fun. I’ve made a routine of skating Flushing Meadows, and I’ve blogged several entries on how I like my weekend skating routing.
This fall I also took a writing class that was beneficial. I think discussing writing for 3 hours on Sundays motivates me, and I think I want to seriously pursue writing. My goal is a short story a month. And after I have some bulk I’ll revise hopefully with more detachment.
During thanksgiving I went home and it was a nice visit with family. And I did get to skate a couple new parks in the Northwest Ohio area.
Overall 2011 was a good year for me, and I documented it well on my blog. I think that is one thing that I’ve been consistent at is writing of a blog every week or so.
2012 GOALS
- I need to get back to the gym pronto. It’s amazing how easy it is to stop working out, and how difficult in can be to get back into the routine. I haven’t been to the gym since well before Thanksgiving. So I’ll be just as bad as all the other resolution people.
- Live healthier. That means being moderate on nights out or abstaining altogether. I need to at least check out a book on general nutrition, and make an effort to not eat junk food. I seem to have a sugar tooth, and like fried things, and grease. I’ll start small like stopping drinking soda, but I need to have a good all around diet and lifestyle.
- Try to progress at skating, and other pursuits in my life.
- Meet more people, listen better to others, and not focus on myself all the time.
READING HABITS
Lastly for this entry, here is my 2011 reading log. I read less than 2010, but maybe more variety. I learned I really like a good autobiography on rock n’ rollers. I enjoyed both the Keith Richards and Patti Smith memoirs greatly. I spent a great deal of time reading ‘Buddenbrooks’ by Thomas Mann and did not finish it. Since I didn’t finish it, I can’t put it on the list! Also with better selections for my work book club, I’m getting a lot of good reading from that too and really enjoy that part of my work.
2011 Book Log
- The Island Beneath the Sea by Isabel Allende. January
- Giavonni’s Room by James Baldwin, January
- Schizophrenia, a very short introduction by Christopher Firth. February
- Finding Nouf by Zoe Ferraris. February
- Angels of the Universe by Eina Margudmussen. March
- The Heretic’s Daughter by Kathleen Kent. March
- Down and out in Paris and London. George Orwell. March
- Shattered by Karen Robards. April
- City of Thieves by David Bernioff. April
- Life by Keith Richards. April/May
- The Zookeepers Wife by Diane Ackerman. May
- Someone Knows my Name by Laurence Hill. June
- Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter Thompson. June
- Remarkable Creatures by Tracy Chevalier. July
- You Believers by Jane Bradley. July/August
- Their Eyes Were Watching God by Neale Zora Hurston. August.
- Goodbye, Columbus by Phillip Roth. August
- Herzog by Saul Bellow. August
- Witches by Rould Dahl. August
- Every Last One. By Anne Quindlen. September
- Light in August by William Faulkner. September/October
- Just Kids by Patti Smith. October
- Indfidel by Ayan Hirshi Ali. November
- Fatal Convictions by Randy Singer. November/December
- The assistant by Bernard Malamud. December
- The marriage Plot by Jeffrey Euginides. December (almost finished)
Focus or take it easy, goal blog 163
Posted: November 21, 2011 Filed under: a history of sorts, My goals for self improvement Leave a comment »My past two blog entries were on actual topics. Those entries were geek out skate entries, but searchable online. My views did go up in the past week from writing on topics that people search for. In the future I’ll do more of this review or article type writing. But on this entry I’m going to digress back into the diary type blogging. Mostly I’m going to talk about my lack of focus and figure out why I’m procrastinating with my writing, gym, and skate goals.
A few weeks ago I was talking to my good friend about my writing goals. She said she did not have writing or any other goals for that matter. Her life was work and having fun. My roommate also said at some points he concentrates on work while not setting a lot of other goals for success. I wish I could be happy with simply work and living my life. Somehow I’m always plotting on ways to become a good writer, a better skater, or get in better shape. I’m always future oriented, if I work enough at something I may be able to succeed. Working full time while trying to be a good writer, and my other ambitions take solid time management.
About two weeks ago my use of time went haywire when I stopped going to the gym. I think I missed a few days, and thought maybe I should take a break until after the Thanksgiving holiday, at that point almost three weeks into the future. My mind wrapped around the idea that I could write my short story for my class, and skate more on weekends. A true blue consistent person would not even consider taking that amount of time off unless injured. I had a flimsy justification to stop exercising. Over night my schedule allowed me more time and I ended up going out more. An exercise routine is important, and necessary for people like me.
I did have a book to read for the work book club, which took up a lot of my days last week because I started it late. I’m happy I had a few solid blog entries, but I am disappointed that I did not start my story that I was suppose to turn in today. My writing class is great, it’s a good group, and every week afterwards I feel inspired. But I missed last week’s class, and should be practicing more what I learn in there. I asked today at the end of the class if the teacher recommends writing as a routine, or when a idea comes to you. He recommended twice a week, but definitely a routine as opposed to once in awhile. So perhaps a good goal would be the gym on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday. And I would write fiction on Tuesday and Thursday nights. On weekends I could skate and write a blog entry. I’m wondering to get better if I should structure my off time to that extent, day by day.
However, I’ve had a lot of fun the past two weeks, I enjoy going out. Maybe I should lighten up, be more spontaneous, and not be hard on myself. Making it as a writer is such a lofty goal, I could practice every night for the next 30 years and success may not happen. I’m 34, and probably won’t progress too much at skateboarding, and will always be intermediate level, not a ripper. Getting in good shape is possible, but I learned from my running days that looking good is not life changing for me.
I’m glad I have people to hang out with, and want to keep my friendships. I think I can balance my schedule with going out some, but still focus on my ambitions. My ambitions are not negative pursuits they are simply to be good at writing and skating. I remember someone saying to me, ‘if you’re not hard on yourself, who will be?’ I think that phrase makes sense as self-motivation. People have to push themselves to have any attempt at success.
I know my goals and what I want to do. I just need to not get sidelined, and practice enough that I progress at my endeavors, instead of them being a daydream fantasy of unrealistic success.
My 100th blog post, about my 100th blog post.
Posted: September 6, 2011 Filed under: a history of sorts, My goals for self improvement | Tags: blogging helps writing, regular blog posts Leave a comment »WordPress lets bloggers know how many posts they have as part of the statistics they offer. This post is my 100th post, which is a substantial number. I’ve had the blog for slightly over 2 years, so that averages once a week or so. Now is a good time to evaluate some positive aspects of maintaining this blog.
Positive thing number one is that this has made writing a routine. Regularly I post for other people to possibly see and that is enough to keep me going with it. Most of the time I get feedback from my parents, my uncles, and sisters. I email my family every post I make through email. I’m glad that my family reads it regularly, and they tell me if I improved on some things, or more rarely tell me what I could do differently. I think getting feedback on writing is a good thing, and better than writing in a void, or keeping everything to one’s self. I am an open book to my family, and I think this has continued the sharing of my life with them.
I do post every blog entry on facebook. Out of the 300 or so friends I have on that social site, I think some people do read it. I don’t expect people to read every single one, but it’s nice that some people from my past and present check it out once in a while. Another stat on the wordpress site is the number of views. When I post it on facebook, I’ll check it about an hour later and the views do go up. Checking a day after I post a new entry the page views vary from 6 to 30, so people do look at it.
For me, the chance that some people look at it, is enough for me to post. Since winter I think I’ve averaged entries twice a week. At that pace I’ll get to 200 entries a lot quicker than I got to 100. The more regularly someone posts though the harder it is to think of topics. A lot of times I would recap weekends I had, or personal histories on varying topics. I like the idea of thinking up a topic or subject and then writing it out until it’s finished. That is why some of my entries are long, because I feel I did not finish my thought.
Another stat that wordpress gives is what search queries on search sites like google get people to look at your blog. My blog gets some search traffic. For more search traffic, I would need to write more topical entries. My entries on skateboarding, books, places, and librarianship were searched a lot more. Unfortunately no search terms such as my name grace the search query stats. It is interesting how on one entry I reviewed Keith Richards book ‘Life’ and some search variations of that book will get people to my blog. If I wanted to maximize the search terms referring people to my site I would need to concentrate on a topic. I don’t think I want to write solely on skateboarding, book reviews, librarianship, or any other topic. And I enjoy sometimes to simply write out what I did on a certain weekend. Now I am more content with my blog being a personal blog, rather than a authority on a topic or a commercial venture. Some blog sites offer advertising and some people are lured in that if they get enough page views they’ll get paid. I’m glad that wordpress doesn’t have advertising on my site, and everything on my blog was of my choice.
I take my blog seriously and I think it’s good for me, my family, and the people that care about me. My site is not viral by any means, but I think 3,700 views in two years is a decent amount. I signed up for a 10 week fiction writing class that starts in October. A goal of mine is to write a short story and revise it properly before the class starts. I’m convinced that the end product will be a lot better because I’ve been so consistent with this blog. So this is my 100th entry, hopefully in a year I’ll hit the 200th entry, and in a decade have thousands of them.
Gym workout plan 82, and Hurricane Irene
Posted: August 31, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement, My life Leave a comment »Tonight was my first night back at the gym since April. September approaches so that break from the gym exceeded 4 months. In April I skated more than in winter and I came up with the brilliant idea that I would simply skate more and I didn’t need the gym. For a few months I did improve but then the July heat wave zapped all ambitions to be outside skating all day on my days off. So tonight I went back to the gym after evaluating a realistic approach to a potential routine. I’ll write about this, and at some point break off for a few paragraphs about Irene. Perhaps blog entries can take on more then one topic.
Last week I wrote how I planned to go to the gym Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday mornings. I came to accept that I will not implement that routine. My morning wars with the alarm clock are too strong to expect all the sudden to start waking at 6 am singing to the birds. Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday I don’t get home until 7 pm. With the sunset getting earlier and earlier I can’t expect much if any skate time after work. I’ll simply be a weekend skate dude, which is better than a lot of people get to do. Skating on Saturday and Sunday I’ll be able to maintain my mediocre skill level but I should not expect to improve. Without lights at the parks I know how to get to, I don’t have a choice.
However, my gym is in a building with lights and stays open until about 10 most nights. So my more realistic gym routine will be Tuesday, Wendesday, Friday evenings and once over the weekends. On Saturday and Sunday might be a challenge to balance skating, a writing class I signed up for and the gym earlier closings. But I think 4 days a week is better than the 3 days a week I did last winter. Most likely being consistent with this stuff is the most important part of exercise, but making plans and setting goals works for me.
When I did 3 gym days a week I tried to push the aerobics on every workout. On the light lifting, one day a week I’d do chest and triceps, on the second day I’d do back and biceps, and on third day of the week I’d simply do shoulders. My 4 day a week plan is similar but I combine the shoulders into the other workout days. That way, with weights I’m hitting the upper body muscle groups twice a week instead of just once. Aerobically it’s better too. Let’s say on the tread mill I work up to averaging 3.5 miles for a half hour on each workout. For three days that is 10.5 miles a week and for four days that would be 14 miles a week. For running I remember from my running days for general fitness about 15 miles a week is a good amount. Two other things I need to figure out are ab workouts and lifting for my legs. I’m wondering if I could get away with doing those once a week, or aim for twice a week on those as well. So that’s my goal. I know how to get in shape, I’m just not so good on follow through.
Tonight I did chest, triceps, and shoulders. On purpose I chose much less weight than I remember doing 4 odd months ago. The lifting went fine, but the running on the treadmill felt awkward. I started at a 12 minute pace and only increased it to a 10 minute pace. When I was 15 I ran a kid fun run mile in 6 minutes flat. It wasn’t an official track, but only one little twerp beat me. Ten years ago I averaged 22 minutes in a lot of 5k races. I could never do better than 22 minutes, but now that sounds pretty good. Now I’m huffing and puffing at over a 10 minute pace on a treadmill. At least I did my goal of twenty minutes on the treadmill tonight. I got out of shape fairly quickly, but there is no reason why I can’t get it back. I don’t think I’ll ever run a 6 minute mile, but getting a 8 minute pace back is a reasonable expectation. For my workout plan this go round I’m running for my aerobics because I think that is the best way to get your heart moving. Lastly about my return to the gym, the scale there said I weighed 200. That is heavy for me, so now is the time to be a gym rat, and maybe that’ll improve my skating on weekends.
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Now on to Hurricane or tropical Storm Irene. I work down in the Rockaways and the Friday before the storm was hectic. From the precincts listserv I got instructions for the mandatory evacuation of the whole Peninsula. I printed out about 20 copies and passed them out. People were talking about it and some were confused. Saturday the MTA shut down so the libraries were closed. That evening my roommate and I got stir crazy and went out for dinner and to hang out with some friends that live local in the Rego Park area. The heavy storm was scheduled for 5 or 6 in the morning. So we felt okay going out for a little bit, and other people were out as well. But walking home at around midnight was a scary walk. People the next day said the this storm was nothing. But at midnight the storm was fierce, we got soaked and rattled by the wind. Next time no matter how stir crazy I get I’ll stay in during major storms.
On Sunday I could get glimpses of the storm damages from the internet, and learned a lot of people were out of power. Later in the day I saw coverage of the Rockaways being flooded. I remembered the precinct listserv and checked my work email. They had some pictures and updates. There was flooding on the main street in the center of the Peninsula fairly close to my library. All day I was worried about damage at my work. On Monday, I didn’t have to work until the afternoon, I called my library and our custodian told me the good news that there was no damage at all. I got to work on time, the transit got working good, and it was a happy day to see that the library and our customers were okay.
Stop sleeping too late and mornings are for the gym!
Posted: August 26, 2011 Filed under: Lifestyle choices, My attempts at humor, My goals for self improvement | Tags: morning workouts, waking up earlier Leave a comment »Getting plenty of sleep and drinking enough water are the two main reasons I keep a youthful appearance well into my thirties. I am sure of it, that sleep is good, but one can always wonder the possibilities to get things done with less snoozing time. This blog entry will be about how sleeping is a determent to reaching my potential.
Over my vacation I planned out this whole new workout schedule for me to try. Before work on Mondays, Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays I would go to the gym. On some points that would mean waking up before 7:00 in the morning. On my first week back in NYC I did not even attempt this, and as usual set my final alarm ringing for about twenty minutes before I left for my commute each morning.
If only I can do this workout schedule it would be beneficial in so many ways. Being consistent and going four days a week I’d be in great shape. My weekend evenings would be free to skateboard, write, blog, read, or any other activity. My weekends, weather permitting, I could skate as much as I wanted. I stopped going to the gym in April or May, and I need to go back. But with summer and fall weather it’s a bummer to go after work. The morning would be ten times better.
However every morning I have war with my alarm clock. I set the alarm about an hour before I have to get up. When it goes off it is a shock to me, then I reset it for an hour, and the second time it goes off I’m also shocked by it. Depending on when I need to get up I’ll press snooze a couple of times. Usually I don’t feel awake until I’m showered and dressed and I don’t really feel comfortable until I have coffee. Left to my own natural devices I would sleep until noon everyday.
On my vacation, some relatives I haven’t seen in awhile were amazed that I could sleep past noon everyday. I don’t know what it is, but I feel so comfortable in bed that sometimes I don’t want to leave it. Probably a favorite part of each night or even my existence is when I wake up in darkness and I realize I can continue to sleep. I do think for whatever reason I get my deep sleep in the morning. Perhaps I go to sleep too late, or I am sleep deprived during the week, but I’m super drowsy in the morning.
Early risers do have a lot of benefits, and perhaps a more structured day is better. Now I wake up, go to work, and come home and do a variety of things. Maybe a schedule of wake up, go to gym, go to work, and come home to a planned out activity whether it’s reading, writing, or maybe even a class.
Breaking the cycle of lazy man sleeping is important for me. I’ve had jobs before that I had to report to work at 6 am. I get up early when I travel. It is humanly possible to wake up early regularly. So Monday is D-day for me and I think if I’m able to make a new routine in a couple of months I’ll be happier and in better shape.
Vacation Book Log With Thoughts
Posted: August 23, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement, My life, My reviews | Tags: Goodbye Columbus, Herzog, Reading on vacation, Their Eyes Were Watching God 1 Comment »Family vacations have the purpose of seeing and interacting with loved ones that normally you don’t get to see that much. However all of my family is well, so I’m going to revolve this blog entry around me as usual instead of summing up my actual vacation. I’ll do this by pointing out that this vacation was very beneficial because I read a ton and I think I’m back in the groove of reading and hope to plow through a plethera of books in the next few months.
A colleague of mine goes on what she calls ‘reading vacations’ or ‘reading marathons.’ On her facebook updates it seems like serious business, to read 7 or so books on a three day weekend. I admire this effort, but I don’t think I could read for every minute of a day. Last year on a family vacation at the same place I read a lot, and I planned to read on this one. I think that a change of setting, or not having to clock in at work, can give focus or attention to books. Maybe someday I should take a long weekend and book a hotel somewhere and simply read. For now, reading more than usual on my vacations is a step in the right direction.
Not all of these were read, but I brought these books for my vacation: Their Eyes Were Watching God by Nora Neale Hurston, Buddenbrooks by Thomas Mann, Goodbye, Columbus, Phillip Roth, the complete short novels of Anton Chekov, Tales of Burning Love by Louise Erdrich, and Herzog by Saul Bellow. Over the course of the week I read three of these selections and one other book. I will shortly describe how I chose the ones I read, what I thought of them, and the epiphanies I reached through reading them.
Their Eyes Were Watching God was an easy first choice, because I scheduled it for my work book club. I read a few chapters the night before I left. On my day of travel I had a flight to Detroit and then a connection flight to Birmingham. On the flight to Detroit I mostly slept, but on the flight to Birmingham I read the whole flight. I even sat next to a pretty college girl but I made no effort to talk, I was reading. That shows that my priorities are wrong. Anyway I left plenty of time to read this in case I had difficulties with it. One participant of the bookclub before my vacation told me she had a hard time getting into it. At first the dialogue does seem wacky, but I got used to it. In my undergrad days I took a basic linguistics class and became familiar with the phonetic alphabet where a symbol represents a sound, and all sounds are put into this alphabet. The idea is that if you know the phonetic alphabet learning languages and dialects is much easier. So I Hurston’s classic ‘ah’ is what would usually be ‘I’. So once you found the similarities and patterns the dialogue did seem natural and authentic. In the first few days of my vacation I finished Their Eyes Were Watching God and I think it is a powerful book. I recommend people read it so I won’t summarize the book, and at less than 200 pages, it will not take much time. My work book club went really well. I also recommend people join book clubs, if you get a room full of people you learn so much more about the book and think about it differently.
So after I read Hurston’s book I had 5 books to choose from. Buddenbrooks looked too daunting, and did I ever imagine I’d really start reading that on my vacation? I do however have it still checked out, and with a possible 3 renewals I could have it for more than 10 weeks from now. The short novels of Anton Chekov seemed kind of ridiculously ambitious. Herzog looked like a serious book too. The Erdrich book I wasn’t too sure off. Out of Brevity I chose Goodbye, Columbus. I picked that book off the shelf because I read many Roth books, but not this one, his first one.
Roth definitely improved over five decades of writing, but this is a very good book and better than the average book. The intro sentence which tells of a pretty girl by the pool asking the narrator to hold her glasses draws the reader in. From my writers workshop I took a few weeks ago this Roth book has a good structure, uses sensory detail, and the characters are three dimensional. His setting of a Newark suburban rich family with a spoiled love interest that the narrator observes is interesting. This was published in 1959 and Roth is still writing quality books, which I think is amazing. The short stories in this collection are good too. I think that I need to read more short stories if I’m going to try to write a short story, and this was a good start. I’m sure they are good examples of how stories should work.
I finished this after in two days and had a big bulk of my vacation left. Buddenbrooks and Anton Chekov still felt like too much of a task. So I decided on Herzog by Saul Bellow. I picked a copy of this up because I think a good friend colleague of mine mentioned it in a conversation recently. He said it was one of his favorite books. I realized with the profession I’m in, and in general when someone says that a certain book is one of his or her favorites it can be quite good. From taking people suggestions seriously I’m glad I’ve read The Tin Drum, East of Eden, Notes from the Underground, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Tropic of Cancer, Lolita, A Heart is a Lonely Hunter, Manchild in the Promise Land, and The Autobiography of Malcolm X. Some of my friends’ favorite books have turned into my favorite books. Go figure.
Herzog was a challenge for me. I found it hard to care about a materialistic, womanizing, and pretentious academic type. Maybe that was the point, to make the reader skeptical or even hate the main character. Parts of it I really liked though. Basically the character is going through a mental breakdown and his second divorce. Throughout the novel he writes bizarre letters to an assortment of people it includes family members, colleagues, and famous people. I believe the little snippets of this letters are entertaining while showing a growing mania. For the first 100 pages I almost put this book down. On my way back to NYC I had a hell commute day. Birmingham to Atlanta was smooth. Atlanta to NYC was hell. I had a two hour layover anyway. We boarded the plane fine, but they said we were not authorized to take off because of weather on the east coast. So we waited on the plane for over an hour before taking off. As we approached NYC we had to circle NYC for a few hours. I was on the plane from 3:00 pm to 9:00 pm and my day started at Birmingham at 10 in the morning. What did I do on this complete day of travel! I read Herzog and got into it and I finished it that night. What I thought was a rambling pointless portentous turned into something worth reading. I’m glad I have this one under my belt but I’m not sure if I can recommend it heartily. But I understand why my friend liked it so much.
Lastly I read a book I did not expect to at all. One evening my nephew who is five asked my to read Witches by Roald Dahl. This is a 200 page children’s classic which I never read before. So I said sure. That evening I read 40 pages to him, and I was real into the story. Over the next few days we read it, and at some points my niece, aged 8, and I would alternate reading chapters to my nephew. On the last evening we stopped with 30 pages left to read. I admit that that night I finished reading those 30 pages by myself. I think perhaps I’ll start checking out other Dahl books or children’s classics. I didn’t read much as a kid, and I think I missed out on some good ones.
I read a lot in a short time, and I now have a goal. Every night except for my blogging nights, I’m going to read. The goal is to average one book a week. I do feel rested from this vacation and invigorated to do several things in my life better.
Andy Kessler Day + Gotham Writers = Good Weekend
Posted: August 8, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement, My good days. Diary/log, Novel attempt/updates, Skateboarding | Tags: Andy Kessler Day, Good weekends, Gotham Writers Leave a comment »My weekend was good with a skateboard event I attended Saturday and a Writing Workshop I took all day Sunday. Two interests in my life were covered. Maybe having a full schedule can combat boredom and keep me out of trouble. So I’ll make on entry here on my thoughts of these two things from this weekend, and come up with a game plan for future weekends.
On facebook I became aware of the Andy Kessler Memorial skate jam at House of Vans. A lot of people are skeptical of facebook and call it a waste of time. One of the positives of facebook and future social media, if you have an interest, hobby, or passion it is so easy to find out what organizations or people are doing with that activity. I feel connected to the New York City skate scene without being that involved in it or making an effort. Through NY Skateboarding, a few skate shops, Steve Rodriguez’s page, and other skaters I know of various events going on. Most of them I pass on, but this was for a good cause.
Andy Kessler passed away a few years ago from a bee sting while skating. He was involved with New York City skating since the 70’s and in the 90’s helped start the building of parks. There is a foundation in his name that carries on his goals. According to the website it promotes music and art as well as skateboarding. This event on last Saturday said they suggested a 5 dollar donation and participants could skate the new House of Vans park in Brooklyn, so I decided to go.
The House of Vans is a private indoor and outdoor park owned by the very successful shoe company. Since it’s private not everyone can skate it usually. I think it was nice for them to open up the space for this donation drive event. Being able to skate and see this park was probably a big draw for a lot of the attendees. Plus they have pool skating there, and according to the documentary, ‘Deathbowl to Downtown’ Kessler and other skaters brought that California type skating toNew York City.
Probably the most positive thing about this event was that people showed up for it, and a lot of older skaters did too. I am a spring chicken compared to some of the guys I saw. And it was a high energy skate jam for a memory of someone they cared deeply about. I think people just skating was a good statement.
They had bands playing too, but I focused mostly on the skating. I think I learned a lesson, in that it’s okay to be a spectator at events. I tried to skate and got nervous from it being so crowded. I did not hurt myself, but did get in some people’s way. I am not at ease in crowded parks, and there would have been no shame to simply watch the good skaters. People that cut me off or skate faster than me are not jerks, they are just better skaters, and I should recognize that I don’t need to prove myself in a crowded park. I think it’s safer to avoid skating in super crowded parks or at events. Since my skate time is limited, most days I should go to the parks and not events. But this was a special occasion.
From going to parks regularly for the past few years I’m starting to know skaters here. I noticed and said hello to at least 10 skaters if not more. For about half an hour I skated a little flatland area with some of the crew from the Forest Park skate park. I like feeling part of something outside of work and I think that is healthy. I was at the Andy Kessler Memerial from about 5:30 to 8:00 and I’m glad I went.
Now to shift gears and talk about the great workshop I went to today. I few weeks ago I looked up Gotham Writer’s on the internet. I found a workshop for Sunday August 7 and thought why not, I have Sundays off. I realized that I have not been instructed in writing since I was in undergrad over a decade ago. Also I noted that since I started writing my blog a few years ago I stopped writing fiction or essays. I have not sent anything out in years. So my ambition was to take this class and then write fiction or something to send out from what I learned. This workshop met and exceeded my expectations.
Early on the teacher, Michael Phillips, explained the structure of the story. In my own words it starts with the everyday of someone’s life, then something significant happens, a goal or problem to solve is set and steps taken to achieve that goal or handle the problem, goal is resolved or problem solved in a positive or negative way, and it ends with how this happening changed the character’s life. I wrote down the terminology and took notes, but I feel I grasp it now. I’m sure I learned this in my college creative writing classes, but now it makes sense. I feel on my previous attempts at fiction I simply wrote in a way that I thought stories should work. I’m hoping with a better understanding of structure I can plan out and execute a story better. That in itself was worth the price of the one day course to me.
One coincidence made me happy early on in the day. The teacher heartily recommended “Writing Fiction’ by Janet Burroway. I already have this from my undergrad creative writing class. In that college class we read parts of it that pertained to the different weeks of the course, but my memory is hazy. I really think that I may have a better grasp of learning this stuff now. So I will read this book cover to cover and see if it helps.
The teacher put a lot of time explaining ‘sensory detail’ which is to describe sight, sound, taste, smell, and feel. On the exercise for this I did not do well. I concentrate from moving the story from point A to B, and don’t think of how a particular action would feel if experienced.
There was a plethora of information given, and maybe to try to retain it, in a few days I will type out the notes. I won’t bother to write out my exercise parts, but I will write down what the scenarios were. They did make one think. Such as one of the later exercise on point of view was this: Write a scene of a person getting mugged from and objective viewpoint, write the same scene from the perspective of the victim, and lastly write the scene from the perspective of the robber giving him some redeeming quality.
I found with the ten minute time frames these were difficult especially with my awful hand writing. But if I typed all the other notes, and those ten or so practice exercises I could practice on my own time.
The practice writing was good, and afterwards people would read what they wrote. I read a few, and got feedback. Listening to others was interesting too, and I realized on a few that I didn’t fully follow the instructions. So I learned from that too, in that stories are layered. A description of a box in not just words but needs to have a place in the story.
Lastly one advice the teacher had was that in a short story every sentence needs to move the story along and is an important part of the story. So published short stories can go through 50 to a 100 revisions by the author. For my blog I never revise. A long time has passed since I wrote something to send out. The stuff I got on hackwriters I revised those pieces perhaps 5 or six times. So my new goal is to write a first draft of a story on my vacation next week, and then revise it no less than 50 times. On revisions though I won’t do my usual typo check and slight tweaking, but change scene orders, delete and add, and try to make it the best I can do.
This weekend was good because I kept busy, so I’ll book up my time and plan out my weekends better. In fall maybe I’ll set up a weekly class of some kind, perhaps with Gathom Writer’s.
That’s all.
False expectations
Posted: August 4, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement Leave a comment »Goals can be a positive or negative force in one’s life. I think the key is making them reasonable and attainable. Lofty pie in the sky win the lottery and quick riches with little work is just day dreaming. Everyone can have fantasy land, but I’m afraid too much day dreaming can only lead to a let down.
So as a 34 year old single employed male what should my goals be? I look at family and friends my age starting their own families. I think that once people have kids the goals naturally shift to family and making a future for their children. Without having my own family tribe at my age makes numerous options for goals. Should I focus on making myself relationship ready to start a family, or should I pursue selfish ambitions with writing, skating, and my career?
One advantage of being single is that it’s all about me; I’m free to focus my attentions and pursuits on what I want. I also need to self evaluate a little more clearly because I have not attained all that I want. Considering what I went through in my teenage and early adulthood years I’m doing well for myself, probably better than a lot of people’s expectations. But I always had a pie in the sky mentality that I would be the best at something, an award winning author, the richest gambler, a professional athlete, a James Bond figure, or some other fantasy nonsense. A lot of my goals are unrealistic. When I try to write fiction my drive is not to finish the story and practice but to have a literary acclaimed prestigious work. One reason I’m single is because I envision myself with models and not simply a normal good woman.
Everyone day dreams but I day dream too much. I believe I need to keep it simple, perhaps in right or wrong terms. If I tell myself I’m not going to drink, than I stick to that decision, and move on. I should not buy a 6 pack like I did tonight because the rain made me bored. With exercise and skating I should practice regularly and try to progress, but have reason on what to expect. My dad pointed out that in Major League Baseball I would be near retirement. Watching the X-games this past week, most of the skaters were in their late teens or early twenties. I will never skate that good, and shouldn’t expect to. That doesn’t mean I can’t progress, but I’ll never be recognized for my skateboarding skills. With writing I need to realize that I need to do it more, and take a step back and learn some of the basics like structure and grammar. This Sunday I’m going to an all day writer’s workshop through Gotham Writers that I’m looking forward to. I should write some short fiction pieces and maybe some essays instead of focusing on a novel all the time. With my career I should do my best in the day to day work, and never take it for granted when so many people are unemployed right now.
Basically I need to simplify my goals and get into the mindset that I don’t need to be a superstar or famous at anything. Most famous people are fake or have so many obligations to other people that their whole lives are scheduled and they are pimped out. Fame and fortune is not a good goal, that is what I need to firmly believe and concentrate on self improvement without the nonsense.
A better way: stop wasting time on the computer.
Posted: July 21, 2011 Filed under: My goals for self improvement | Tags: computer usage, reading, time-wasters Leave a comment »I frequently write about goals I have, I find this a productive way to think things through. Usually I’ll write about my fitness or writing goals. On this entry I’m going to try to plan out a better way to use my spare time by limiting my internet time each night.
For the last two days I started a book that I like on my commute ride home. On both nights once I got home instead of continuing to read, I turned on my computer and passed several hours in youtube-facebook-la la land before going to sleep. Eventually I’ll get back to going to the gym some evenings, but I keep putting that off. With vacation coming up in three weeks I might as well put it off until I get back from that. So now I’ve been in the habit of dorking around on the computer when I get home. I did not always have the internet in my apartment, and believe I got it less than two years ago. Looking at my book log I think I did do more serious reading before I got the internet. My focus was on that, reading literature, and writing instead of obsessively checking the various online sites I take part in. So basically my goal is to read more, and waste less time on the computer on my spare time.
I am in favor of facebook and social media. Over the past few years of belonging to facebook, I reacquainted myself with so many people from my past. I have friends from when I lived in Baltimore on there which I moved away from at age 15. I have a brigade of people from my high school in Toledo. I have my skate friends from Toledo, a few college friends and professors, people from the Barnes & Noble I worked with, people from my Kent State library school and a few professors there too, and a lot of colleagues at Queens Library. It really is something to have this network of people to possibly connect with. Over the years I’ve had several reunions of people visiting NYC and being aware of it from facebook events or personal emails. I think this has value, but I also think I could read the posts of everyone on there in twenty minutes a night, instead of checking it multiple or to be more honest a ton of times each day.
Youtube is the other site I spend too much time on. This has value to watch famous skateboard parts, and for music. One can spend a lot of time on youtube, one search leads to another, and before you know it an hour passed without you realizing it. Again I don’t think I should ban youtube from my life, but limit it as much as possible.
Okay I will keep my internet service, but I have a plan. I get 45 minutes on the internet a night. The exception is on the two nights a week when I write my blog entries. My schedule for blog entries are Wednesday night and Sunday night. So on those nights I’ll let myself be on the computer longer. Of those 45 minutes of computer time most nights I’ll use half of it to check up on facebook. But I’m going to use facebook differently. Usually I post a status update once a day on facebook, everyday I put something. Instead of always focusing on myself in facebook, I’m going to comment more on other people’s updates. I think that’s the point of social media is to share with friends, not to always promote yourself.
Limiting myself to 45 minutes on the computer may lead me to reading more. If I could read an hour a night I’d be happy. I’ve noticed too many times after toying around on the computer I would go to sleep without reading anything.
This is a realistic goal, and not as far fetched as most of my aspirations.
The world’s smallest violin playing hearts and flowers
Posted: February 13, 2011 Filed under: My attempts at humor, My goals for self improvement Leave a comment »Scratching the novel attempt, sleeping roughly 15 hours to start out a weekend, and reading next to nothing are three solid things telling me something went haywire the past few weeks. If nothing else I lost my focus and I need to get it back pronto.
Three weeks ago I started my novel attempt and was writing at a break neck speed. Then on Friday February 4th, I had an epic night out with my friends. I got back at 4 in the morning that night, had a good time, but didn’t do much of anything the rest of that weekend. All of last week I didn’t write in my novel attempt either. I wrote a few blogs, but nothing in my attempt. So one night out with my friends, one night returning to my olden days of excess, and my ambitions went out the window. I think the one way to remedy this will not to overdo it, not hang out in bars, and give my self a curfew. From now on I need to be in my apartment by midnight.
In all fairness to myself I have not been a hundred percent. A few weeks ago I had a raging sore throat and was given some nasal spray. I’m mostly better, but I think this weather and the temperature have kept my throat a little scratchy. For a full two weeks I did not go to the gym. Thankfully this week I returned with workouts on Tuesday, Friday and today, Sunday. So I think getting back into the routine of exercise can only help my disposition. I get in trouble when I don’t exercise, most likely out of boredom. Now that I’m back I’ll need to be consistent with the gym which will make me consistent with writing.
From the sickness I had I did not skate for like three weeks. The weather was crap too, and this had an effect on my happiness as well. Yesterday I skated at Forest Park. Only the mini ramp and a small flat space with a steep bank were cleared of snow. When I got there I skated the steep back. Other skaters and I would simply push, go up the bank, turn around or ride down fakie and then do a trick on flatland. You only had room for one trick, and I ended up stomping into the snow several times. Two dudes were trying rock to fakie and 5-0’s on top of the bank, which was sick because it was so high. After that I simply skated the mini. There were several locals there and I knew from fall. Even though the park was so limited, I had a great time, and I think I was there for a few hours. I bruised my forearm. That is okay because my bruised forearm gave me a picture for this blog. This winter has been tough but it will end, and I’m looking forward to skating more.
As for the sleeping too much I’ll try not to worry about it. On Friday night I went to sleep at around 11 at night, and I slept until after 2 in the afternoon on Saturday. That is a ridiculous amount of sleep. Last night I went to sleep around midnight and I got up after noon. Sleeping too much could mean two things. I’m either still recovering from a cold of some sort, or I’m not getting enough sleep during the week. I’ll try not to worry too much about sleeping in, but I’d like to get the most out of my weekends. The earlier you wake up the more hours you have in the day.
As far as reading goes, I realize I read in spurts. Perhaps nothing has captivated me recently. I’m sure I’ll find a book I like soon.
The world is not ending, and I can get my focus back. In order to do so I will set a curfew for myself, I can’t be out after midnight. I need to keep the drinking to a minimum, perhaps I should go back to abstaining. Also I need to get back to writing the novel attempt, I lost a week and I can still make up for that by writing. The goal will be to write everyday, even if it’s not a huge amount. Making writing a habit is the key to finishing the draft. Lastly three times a week I need to have my gym workouts and skateboard when I can. My mood, my health, and a lot more things are better when I exercise.











