Taking it easy and progressing at the same time

Sometimes changing things up a little bit can be rejuvenating.  That has been the case for me for the last three weeks.  During the weeks or months of the holidays I went out quite a bit. I’m glad that I have friends to socialize with, but when you’re out three or so times a week it’s hard to get things done.  Maybe I had a delayed drive to do some resolution stuff, but I’ve followed through on making some changes on how I spend my spare time.

First I started to politely decline offers to go out. In the future I’ll see these people, they are all my friends, and I’m sure they understood that I need time by myself. With time available I finally got into a gym schedule that makes sense. For the past three weeks I’ve been going to the gym on Tuesday, Wednesday, and Friday nights. And I go on either Saturday or Sunday. This totals four workouts that I lift and run a week. It is a little more regular and more intense that the three times a week I tried to do in fall.

I wouldn’t call it cooking. But having cereal, easy to boil noodles, fruit, and other easy to make food at home has decreased my spending bills. So on Tuesday, Wednesday and Friday when I get back from the gym I can eat simply and not have to go out again for takeout. I work late Monday and Thursday, and I’ve been eating cheaply at home on those nights too.

Over the past month I’ve read a little more, which I find is easier to do when I stay in. I can kind of make a routine, and I have my comfy chair in my room. Sometimes I do dork around on the computer, but not everything has to be productive, and there are worse things to do than watching videos on youtube or listening to Pandora.

Lastly, and the change I’m most proud of is that I wrote a short story this week. I signed up for another class at Gotham Writers. The first class was last Sunday. I decided to sign up to pass my story out at the next class to be critiqued the following week. So basically I had a deadline. For months now I’ve thought about this story. The teacher said the maximum length for a story was 15 pages double-spaced. My concept of a story was longer than that. I quickly figured out how to shorten it. On Sunday, Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday nights I wrote it out by hand. On Thursday like a maniac I typed up the whole thing. It ended up being 13 pages and 4,000 words. Today I fixed the obvious typos, and on Sunday when I pass it out, I’ll say it’s a first draft, and ask for suggestions on how to revise. I learned from this that ideas I have for stories I just need to think it over a little bit and then start writing.

I feel I’m taking it easy in some ways but also improving quite a bit at writing, and my general health. And tomorrow I plan to skate (50 degrees in late January) and have a relaxed dinner with some friends.


Trying to accept the fact I can’t grow full beards by shaving

More than ten days have passed since I wrote up a blog entry.  Should one write about anything to keep a schedule or should one wait until they have something to write about? From my experience with blogging, it needs to be regular, which means at least once a week. Then you get views from the people you email the post, and those that see it on facebook, twitter, and other sites.  But the more your write on different subjects the more searches can get to your blog.  Because of that I think more is better, and it only takes one media person to link a post on a major site to get exposure. I really do not have much to talk about today, so I’m going to stoop low and talk about hair, facial hair that is.

For the past few winters I got the itch to grow a beard.  My facial hair is not the fullest, and is kind of straggly. To a certain point it looks good. One friend 3 or 4 years ago told me the trick is to shave your neck, and that gives some boundaries for the beard and makes it look better. I decided in early November to grow a beard so I would have one for my thanksgiving holiday. I had my beard until tonight, and other than shaving my neck every few days I did not trim it at all.

Over dinner on Sunday, my sister kind of looked at my beard and said, “It’s starting to look a little wild.”  With that statement she kind of had a smile or an expression to make me think it was getting out of control.  My sister is a very smart woman, and knows a lot about fashion. She told me years ago never to buy pleated slacks, but always get flat front slacks. And she is right.

Anyway, my beard was freshly on my mind. On Monday morning after a quick shower before work I headed out toward the bus stop. I put my hand on my beard and noticed it was still wet. We have had some super warm weather recently, but what happens when it does get really cold.  Would I have a frozen beard? When I eat pizza, does the grease stay on my beard and chin? If my nose starts running, would the snot stay on my mustache?  I’m not a neat freak, but maybe it’s called being ‘clean’ shaven because it’s more hygienic.

Today at work, my beard is still on my mind. I asked a few coworkers. Someone pointed out either trim it or shave it off.  A few customers made funny but nice comments on it, so I decided I would shave it off. Originally I planned to keep it until April, but I guess I’m a quitter.

On the bus ride home I saw a dude that had a thick beard. I could grow it until next thanksgiving, and mine would not look like a manly beard. So I came home and walked to my barber, but the barber closed at seven. So I got some food, came home, and started the long process of shaving. I started with a small pair of scissors I use to trim my nose hair. And then I found a disposable razor, and then I used the expensive razor. This felt like it took a long time.

One thing I was on the fence about shaving my beard was if I did that at the barber, I would have to get a hair cut too. But by shaving myself I can continue to let my hair grow.

I’m not trying to tell people not to grow beards with this blog entry, but encourage people to try different things and do what works. For me, I don’t think facial hair works, unless I spent time styling it, which I won’t do.


2011 year in review, 2012 new year goals, and 2011 book lot

Happy New Year everyone! I’m going to review my last year, set my 2012 goals, and give you my 2011 reading log, all in this one entry. I am also going to make an effort to write in shorter paragraphs and say what I need to say with fewer words.

Winter was cold. My skating was solid up until January and then it was sporadic practically until April. My memory is kind of hazy of January through March 2011, but I guess nothing traumatic happened.

In late April I took a solo trip to Las Vegas. To say it was a spiritual journey would be a stretch. But it was important for me to travel by myself. I made my itinerary and did what I wanted. When you travel with people there is always a compromise, but by myself I was able to do things I wanted. I skated every day, saw nature sites, and had nights out. I’d like to travel more, but not in 2012, I need to get to where I can pay for my trips, and not charge them. Now I want to travel, whereas before my Vegas trip I thought I didn’t have an interest in going places. Here is my ridiculously long blog entry after the trip.  {Vegas blog entry }

In spring I skated quite a bit, but a lot of my focus was in my library work with advocacy against the budget cuts.  Aside from the yearly budget threat and a low materials budget work is going well. I’ve been at the same location, and have been able to concentrate on improving services. I get a lot out of work and feel that librarianship is the career for me. Here is an advocacy blog I wrote about this year’s read in. {24 hour read in }

In June I was suppose to go to Toledo for a full week of vacation. I planned to skate, read, write, and hang out. My parents changed that when they say they needed help cleaning out the farm in Virginia. So I flew into Detroit, and we drove down to Virginia. It’s beautiful down there, and I’m glad I went. Here’s my entry with a lot of good pictures. {Farm entry }

Over the summer it was beastly hot and affected my skating big time. I remember on some days only being out for an hour or less, being winded, and sweating profusely. I did not skate as much this summer as I planned too. In August I vacationed down in Florida with my whole immediate family, it was a great time. I try to read a lot on my vacation, and here is the blog entry I wrote about my Florida vacation. {Florida reading }

September, October, November, and December had lovely weather.  I think after a lull I’ve finally started to progress some at skating and I’m having fun. I’ve made a routine of skating Flushing Meadows, and I’ve blogged several entries on how I like my weekend skating routing.

This fall I also took a writing class that was beneficial. I think discussing writing for 3 hours on Sundays motivates me, and I think I want to seriously pursue writing. My goal is a short story a month. And after I have some bulk I’ll revise hopefully with more detachment.

During thanksgiving I went home and it was a nice visit with family. And I did get to skate a couple new parks in the Northwest Ohio area.

Overall 2011 was a good year for me, and I documented it well on my blog. I think that is one thing that I’ve been consistent at is writing of a blog every week or so.

2012 GOALS

  1. I need to get back to the gym pronto. It’s amazing how easy it is to stop working out, and how difficult in can be to get back into the routine. I haven’t been to the gym since well before Thanksgiving. So I’ll be just as bad as all the other resolution people.
  2. Live healthier. That means being moderate on nights out or abstaining altogether.  I need to at least check out a book on general nutrition, and make an effort to not eat junk food. I seem to have a sugar tooth, and like fried things, and grease. I’ll start small like stopping drinking soda, but I need to have a good all around diet and lifestyle.
  3. Try to progress at skating, and other pursuits in my life.
  4. Meet more people, listen better to others, and not focus on myself all the time.

READING HABITS

Lastly for this entry, here is my 2011 reading log. I read less than 2010, but maybe more variety. I learned I really like a good autobiography on rock n’ rollers. I enjoyed both the Keith Richards and Patti Smith memoirs greatly. I spent a great deal of time reading ‘Buddenbrooks’ by Thomas Mann and did not finish it. Since I didn’t finish it, I can’t put it on the list! Also with better selections for my work book club, I’m getting a lot of good reading from that too and really enjoy that part of my work.

2011 Book Log

  1. The Island Beneath the Sea by Isabel Allende. January
  2. Giavonni’s Room by James Baldwin, January
  3. Schizophrenia, a very short introduction by Christopher Firth. February
  4. Finding Nouf by Zoe Ferraris. February
  5. Angels of the Universe by Eina Margudmussen. March
  6. The Heretic’s Daughter by Kathleen Kent. March
  7. Down and out in Paris and London. George Orwell. March
  8. Shattered by Karen Robards. April
  9. City of Thieves by David Bernioff. April
  10.  Life by Keith Richards. April/May
  11.  The Zookeepers Wife by Diane Ackerman. May
  12.  Someone Knows my Name by Laurence Hill. June
  13. Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas by Hunter Thompson. June
  14.  Remarkable Creatures by Tracy Chevalier. July
  15. You Believers by Jane Bradley. July/August
  16. Their Eyes Were Watching God by Neale Zora Hurston.  August.
  17. Goodbye, Columbus by Phillip Roth. August
  18.  Herzog by Saul Bellow. August
  19.  Witches by Rould Dahl. August
  20.  Every Last One. By Anne Quindlen. September
  21. Light in August by William Faulkner. September/October
  22.  Just Kids by Patti Smith. October
  23.  Indfidel by Ayan Hirshi Ali. November
  24.  Fatal Convictions by Randy Singer. November/December
  25.  The assistant by Bernard Malamud. December
  26. The marriage Plot by Jeffrey Euginides. December (almost finished)

My weekend: active days and reflective nights.

More than a week has past since my last blog post, but I’ve been busy. My understanding is like everything the more consistent and regularly a blog posts are the better. Since it’s late, and I don’t want to spend too much time typing I’ll go with my bread and butter. And that is simply recapping my weekend. Yes, sometimes my blog is just a diary log.

Friday night I read. For work I have a book club on Monday, and I read a good portion of it on Friday.  Between chapters I would watch youtube music videos, skate videos, and checked facebook about thirty times. As winter approaches I’ll do this more, just have a nice lazy night in the comfort of my apartment.

Saturday I slept in and skated Flushing Meadows. I told my friend I’d meet him at the unisphere at 2:30.  I got there a little early and felt I couldn’t warm up.  Somehow a hoodie with only a t-shirt underneath felt drafty. There were a few whippersnapper teenage skaters filming. There were good, but cursed every time they missed a trick, and one kid focused (broke his board in half) for really no reason at all. I felt glad that I’m not a teenager anymore, but worried that my session would not be that great.  Before Saturday I did not skate for a full two weeks. When I don’t skate for a little bit my imagination becomes deluded of my skill level. I think I’m a lot better than I actually am. So when I do get skate reality sets in, and I feel I can’t do anything. It can take me up to a half hour for me to warm up. Warming up consists of rolling around, and not really trying much of anything. It takes me several minutes to even try kickflips, something I can do fairly consistently.

My friend came and quickly I started to enjoy my session. We stayed in the unishpere, and we both practiced nose slides.  For me the ledge is high, so I’m glad I can do them decently.  I sized up the grate, and there is no way I could noseslide across that whole thing. It’s like 15 feet across.  The speed needed to make that is ridiculous for me. I think the noseslides I was doing on other parts of the ledge were 3 to 4 feet tops. But I’m happy with that.  My friend and I played a game of s.k.a.t.e. that loosened me up to were I felt comfortable.

We walked to the skate park. The park was super crowded. I wanted to try a wall ride on the steep bank by the 3 step. On my second try I did it, and that was enough of the skate park. I didn’t even take off my jacket. Near the unisphere there is a little bank to ledge. To describe it to people that don’t skate is difficult but I’ll try.  It starts with a curb, but it’s lower that a curb, then there is a slope maybe at a 30 degree angle, and a small curb, edge on top.  It goes in maybe a foot and a half and might be a little over a foot high. You can approach it straight, ride up it, do something on the top, and roll down.  With this approach I did an ollie 180 to disaster, and revert out. I did a nosepicker on it.  After many tries I did a switch ollie 180 to rail, to revert out. My friend can skate transition, and did a lot of combos. For some reason, I like this spot, and feel confident on it. Approaching it like a normal ledge I did 50-50’s on it with decent speed. Instead of popping out of the 50-50, with the ledge you could roll out of it. Rolling out of a grind was fast and fun.

After that we skated in one of the rectangle fountains that is the size of a football field.  In another game of s.k.a.t.e the sun started to set. I took one picture here, because the stature with the unisphere in the background looked good. We could see the lights at the unishpere, and we walked over, and it was perfect. Bright lights flooded the entire famous spot. We skated in the lights for about 40 minutes. Someone put a focused board in a crack pointing straight up. My friend quickly rode up the board deck with a little pop. Quickly he did a 180 out of it. I never did anything like that, but he told me it was easy. I did a few of them, and even did a sloppy 180 off of it.  Saturday was a great skate day, to be out for 3 to 4 hours felt great. I went home and read the stories for my writing class Sunday.

On Sunday my story was work shopped in my writing class. The class did give some very positive encouragement while also giving me pointers too. A class has a lot of value, because as a writer you think of one way for a story. When several people read it, there are multiple scenarios for most stories. Also another student’s story work shopped was a revision. This revision was a complete rewriting of the original based on the structure, language suggestions from the first workshop.  This gave me a valuable lesson. My idea of revision is cleaning up the typos, fixing a sentence here and there. But revision looking at the whole story can be a complete change or rewrite.  I think I’m going to sign up for a class in winter. This class has inspired my writing. I had two completed drafts of fiction, when I haven’t written fiction in years.   I need to keep the momentum, and my goal is one story a month.

After class I took the E to downtown and went to the Tribeca skate park.  This is a small park and gets crowded easily. The level of some of these kids is amazing. They have rails and big ledges going down.  But I had few conversations and some of them were nice and seemed happy to be there.  For a little bit I watched, after a near collision, I decided to wait a bit.  It did clear out some. The obstacles in this park are not scary like the Chelsea Park, but they are big enough were I don’t try much new tricks.  On the euro gap I can ollie it okay, but last May almost fell on my face when I tried a frontside 180 over it. So I’m careful on that.  As the day progressed I warmed up, and simply practiced backside 180’s from the slope to flat. I’m not good at backside 180’s, but felt I got a few ones with decent height. On flat I barely have any height to them.  I also did a little noseslide to shove-it out.  Tribeca forces me to practice the basics.  Once in awhile that might be a good thing.  If you do the basics better, than everything will improve. One can only hope.

After that I read in a café for a little bit and then had great noodles with my sister for dinner.   My sister can really put things in perspective, and I’m happy I get to see her and my little nephew once a week. After that I came home. I finished The Assistant by Bernard Malamud for my work book club, and it should be a good discussion. Overall my weekend was good. I had two active days and reflective easy nights.


Writing Class is Inspiring!

Yesterday I literary slept all day. I woke up at around 3, had some left over pizza and went back to bed.  This morning when I woke to make my writing class I had a pounding headache. I assumed and was worried that I got a cold. Thankfully some Tylenol worked. Today was a big day for me at my writing class.  My short story was workshopped. I’m glad I didn’t skip it.

Before this I emailed the same story to some family and friends. Several gave me good advice, and things I could work with. I haven’t workshopped my work in more than a decade. I’m amazed at the different ways eleven people looked at my story.  Plot turns, choice of words, what to focus on, and other suggestions are things I would not have thought of on my own.  And when you get feedback from friends and family it’s usually in the form of an email or a few minutes of conversation. This was a discussion taking a half hour or so of the class’s time. Everyone had a turn to speak, and the teacher helped people to elaborate. I recommend Gotham Writer’s or other writer’s groups where you get this type of class discussion. I think when I go to revise this story my approach will be much better. Also, doing the same for others, and giving feedback on other students work is beneficial.  Normally I read published work, and either I like it or I don’t.  To give valuable feedback you need to analyze the work.  This can be time consuming to see what turns of phrases work, if a transition to one scene to another doesn’t work, if a point of view or tense is consistent, and if other writing skills are strong or weak.  Learning to evaluate stories as a writer can only help my own revision attempts. Including my own, we have read 5 stories over two weeks.  Each story was unique and created talking points for the teacher.   The class has people in different career paths and different backgrounds. I’m impressed how seriously the class is taking the feedback to critiquing the stories.  I’m very impressed with everyone in the class.

Also I think talking about writing for 3 hours on Sunday afternoons is inspiring. I took a workshop with Gotham in summer. I started a story and only got a few pages into it. After the first class of this semester we had a two-week break because of Columbus Day. During that break I wrote out the story by hand, and then quickly typed it up. That was the first short story I finished in a few years. I was happy with that, just to finish the story was a milestone in my opinion. In the foreseeable future I simply plan to write short stories, because I enjoy the feeling of completing them.  With this revision I realized once a draft is completed, there are numerous changes and direction a writer can go with a draft. Anyway after today’s class I feel inspired to write. I walked up around 20 blocks in midtown to meet my sister and nephew for a very late lunch. Since I was sick I didn’t want to hang in Manhattan until dinner or skate after class. So we met around 3:40. On that short walk up to near Columbus Circle I thought of what to write next.  I decided with so much feedback, maybe I should sit on my workshopped story, and go straight to a new story. I actually signed up to turn in a new story in three weeks.

For a few weeks now I thought of taking parts of my failed novel attempt, and using some of those themes for new and better work. My sister laughed at me during our late lunch as I told her my plan and said I shouldn’t call my past work ‘my failed novel attempt,’ and instead call it ‘my unfinished novel.’ Anyway, this class energized me, and I thought out the beginning of a short story, and then the twist that will be a conflict. I don’t want to get too much into what I want to do, but I’m excited about the solid outline I thought of. Maybe that is the main thing about writing, to get excited about a project, and maintain that drive to complete it.

So in October I wrote a story, and in November I hope to write a story.  During class the teacher talked about publication, and emphasized the more stories you have out the better.  I pointed out that in a Charles Bukowski documentary I saw he said he sent out a story or piece of work each week.  I’m not a Bukowski fan, but I always thought that was an amazing pace.  The teacher today reiterated today just by numbers the more you submit the more of a chance you have.  For me, I am not capable or writing a story per week. But I think I can write one story a month. So that is my new goal, to write one story a month.

For a little bit I’ll just write them.  In 3 or 4 months I would have a small pool of stories, and then maybe I would be able to revise them with more detachment. Instead of worrying about if my one and only story is perfect, maybe with numerous stories, I could look at them simply as stories and not as personally. That’s about it!

COMING SOON: I’m about halfway through ‘Just Kids,’ an autobiography by Patti Smith.  This book is well written and has been making me think quite a bit. So my next entry will be a review of this book and a self absorbed rendering of the larger thoughts on creativity this book has sparked in me.


Improving, not simply setting goals!

Life has been good, even with sporadic internet over the last month or so. I realized not having a regular connection means less blogging, but maybe more of a focus for writing. My last blog entry of over a week ago I stated how I finished a short story, the first completed fiction work by me in years. One week, every night I simply wrote it out by hand. In the following weeks I typed it up, shared it with family, and revised it some. Next week it will be work-shopped with a good group of people in my writing class at Gotham Writers. I feel invigorated by taking writing seriously and studying the craft. Now that my internet is fixed and seems to working regularly, I will pick up the blogging. But I want to keep up the fiction flow, so I’m not sure yet how frequently I’ll blog. Twice a week proved a difficult pace. And I found when I write out the story, that working on it everyday helped me get through the first draft.

I feel invigorated from writing more, and physically I feel better. With the gym after trial and error, I came up with the goal of going 3 times a week.  For the aerobic part, it will always be running on the treadmill. At first I was trying to go as fast as I could for 20 minutes. In a conversation with my mother, she suggested to take it easy if I feel too exhausted from it.  Before I would steadily increase the pace until I was around an 8 minute per mile pace. I remember from my running days that this was a nice and steady pace. But in contemporary times in my mid thirties it is a challenge to run at that pace. I’d have shortness of breadth, and be sweating a lot. Worse, on my skate days I felt I was too sore and uncomfortable while skating. So my mom told me to take it easy and work up the speed later. So I’m starting at like a 12 minute pace and only working up only to a 9:30 mile pace. I always finish, I feel it’s effective, but I don’t feel exhausted.  For weights I’m using a similar philosophy, just to get the workout in. I think exercise is a lifetime pursuit, and consistency is more beneficial than going all out in spurts. I’m starting to make it a routine, part of my life, but keeping the focus on skating at this point. When the ice and winter comes, and I can’t skate as much, then I can step it up at the gym.

Skating has been great. After a summer that was too hot, I am comfortable skating for long periods on my days off.  I’ve been going to Flushing Meadows with a few friends, and I’m really starting to like that park.  My short story takes place at this skate park. The skate park is world class, and if it’s too crowded you can go wondering to other parts of very large Flushing Meadows Park. Near the unisphere, my friend and I found a little bank to ledge to goof around on, then a empty square fountain the size of a football field. Once the water is turned off for the season, the Unisphere, is a world famous spot that no one minds if you skate in. I enjoy skating at the skate park and then to cruise around this park. There are a lot of families playing soccer, and having their day in the park. Overall it gives off a positive vibe that represents the borough of Queens. This park where the Mets play and the U.S. Open for tennis is played every year, is a unique park that anyone could a make a day out of. It also is a paradise for skateboarding. As far as I’m concerned the skate season lasts until January or when winter definitely sets in. I’m only able to skate on weekends, but I’m thankful for that. I think I appreciate it more and look forward to it all week.

Overall I’m doing well. And I think I’m actually working toward several improvements. Instead of thinking up lofty and questionable goals, I’m actually making progess!


A fortnight, an IMac, and some skating

One fortnight, or two weeks has passed since I last blogged. My mind was occupied with computer woes, as my computer of 6 years had to go.  So, this is my first blog post on a Mac, and I can tell this may affect my blog, and will definitely affect my use of the computer.

Before I dwell down into my decisions of computer purchasing I’ll briefly recap my life of the past two weeks.  I’m sorry if going from two posts a week to nothing left family, friends, and fans out of the loop, but I was without the Internet during that time. Most of my out of work updates has to do with skating. With September the weather has been more reasonable and every weekend I skated. A mutual friend introduced me to someone local that wanted to get back into skating. So I have someone that lives really close by to skate with, and I managed to meet up with a few of my other skate friends in the past two weeks. In the summer I skated mostly Forest Park out of convenience, but it’s good to skate other places and with old dudes like myself.

Yesterday I skated flushing meadows with my friend Julian. Near the unisphere there are all these empty fountain squares, which is a great place to skate flat away from the crowds of people. Most of the day we stayed there.  We had a great game of s.k.a.t.e that I lost on a backside kickflip he did on his first try. I think we are both progressing which is cool. After a few hours we went to the Flushing Meadows Skate Park, and I eyed the ledge over the grate gap.  In a few tries I got a nose slide over the distance of the grate, and that made my day. It felt great and it is good. Maybe it’s the first step to overcoming my fear of ledges.  Yesterday I sweated a lot, but I’m excited about the upcoming fall weather.

Other than skating, I’ve been socializing with my library colleagues that live in the Rego Park area, and my new skate friend.  I think now it’s easy to get caught up in cyber worlds or other isolated endeavors, so I enjoy that I can meet with a few friends regularly, and solve the problems of the world. I think that I need to call some other people up and try to hang out with them before everyone hibernates for the winter.

Okay, my computer woes started when the Internet didn’t work, then it would take forever to load when it started. Everything was in slow motion with my old computer. My cable was busted way before the Internet went caput and I made an appointment for the cable company to look at both. The guy was nice and replaced the cable box so it worked. For the computer he opened up my memory or something that showed I was over the capacity allowed for the computer. The cable guy recommended Macs. My skate friend Julian recommended Macs, my sister heartily recommends them, and a plethora of other people told me they are good.

Last night my sister went with me to the Mac store, and I was impressed.  My sister is very patient and good-natured to spend time with me at that store. I think I got a good product, and liked the customer service compared to other major retailers. After hooking it up last night I realized there are some differences between Mac and PC’s. I think in a few weeks I’m going to like it more. For this blog I’m testing myself. I’m taking two pictures from flushing meadows from my email I took a few weeks ago. One is of Julian ollieing a cone, and the other of the fountain. And I took a picture from my Mac computer. If I can post those to my blog, I’ve already mastered a few blog skills I’ll need on a Mac.


Facebook is the reason writing does not pay my bills.

I don’t read magazine articles that much, something I need to work on. However my roommate reads a ton of magazines and sometimes tells me what he read, it is an education of sorts for me.  According to my roommate shortly after Jonathan Franzen wrote Freedom he did some interviews. Freedom is a fantastic book, one that someday I’ll reread. But Franzen took a long time, almost a decade after his last infamous fiction work, The Corrections to publish Freedom. In some interview in a magazine that my roommate read, Franzen said for awhile he had a hard time concentrating. Eventually he cancelled his internet and cable at home, and only then could he focus enough to write a powerful fiction book.

In no way am I trying to compare myself to a writer like Franzen, but that situation shows that time management is essential for people trying to write fiction. Last week a funny thing happened that shows how the draw of the internet can foil a writing attempt. First I’ll tell of my goal, about a month ago I took a one day writing intensive class through Gotham Writers. I was so impressed with the class that I signed up for a 10 week course with them starting in October. My goal is a simple one, to write and adequately revise a short story before the classes start in three or four weeks.  I enjoy blogging so much, that I have not written fiction since my failed novel attempt last winter.

I thought up a story, perhaps not the most earth shattering or important story, but a simply one I felt I could do. Last Tuesday before I started I posted on facebook that I was going to write a short story, as if the world needed to know this. That night I did write a solid page in small hand writing, a good start. On Wednesday night like a trooper I continued. However before I started writing, I picked up my cell phone and logged into my mobile facebook. I wrote the status update ‘I got my Oreos and my grape soda, now I’m ready to write.’ Somehow when the majority of my facebook updates don’t get much attention, this one did. Several people commented about my diet and writing. The comments were funny, and with good intentions. I wrote a few more paragraphs in my story, and then wrote this status update on facebook: ‘Is Clive Thorpe a good name for a protagonist?’ Shortly after several people commented on that either poking fun or giving me nice encouragement. By the end of the night I paid more attention to my facebook page than what I wrote in the story. I did write a full page in small writing and was at a good stopping point. The next scene well be harder to write because it will be the ‘inciting incident’ part of the story structure that changes the characters life. Wednesday was my last night of writing this story. I planned to churn the first draft out in a week so I could make an effort to revise it well. I think that checking facebook obsessively hindered my attempt. I can salvage it, but I need to get back to writing it quickly.

Aside from writing I’ve been thinking about facebook a little bit, and I think less is more on there for me. A lot of people I respect from work, high school, skating, family, and grad school do not post much at all. They have some restraint, or have better things to do with their time. Some people that post frequently that I follow do make it interesting for me to check regularly, and sometimes posts from various people brighten my day. I think if I have something funny to say I should say it, but sometimes I have a tendency to list off things I did in a day and other mundane stuff. I don’t think I add much to the conversation of my facebook friends, so I will take it easy on there. I’ll continue to post my blogs on there, and share links sparingly. Also if I post less, I won’t obsessively check it to see if people respond to my posts. I won’t take the Franzen route of canceling my internet services, but I do need to put a priority on writing. I think writing nightly is a good goal. At least I should finish this story before the class starts, that is not the most ambitious goal at all and it’s totally possible.


Andy Kessler Day + Gotham Writers = Good Weekend

My weekend was good with a skateboard event I attended Saturday and a Writing Workshop I took all day Sunday. Two interests in my life were covered. Maybe having a full schedule can combat boredom and keep me out of trouble. So I’ll make on entry here on my thoughts of these two things from this weekend, and come up with a game plan for future weekends.

On facebook I became aware of the Andy Kessler Memorial skate jam at House of Vans. A lot of people are skeptical of facebook and call it a waste of time. One of the positives of facebook and future social media, if you have an interest, hobby, or passion it is so easy to find out what organizations or people are doing with that activity. I feel connected to the New York City skate scene without being that involved in it or making an effort. Through NY Skateboarding, a few skate shops, Steve Rodriguez’s page, and other skaters I know of various events going on. Most of them I pass on, but this was for a good cause.

Andy Kessler passed away a few years ago from a bee sting while skating. He was involved with New York City skating since the 70’s and in the 90’s helped start the building of parks. There is a foundation in his name that carries on his goals. According to the website it promotes music and art as well as skateboarding. This event on last Saturday said they suggested a 5 dollar donation and participants could skate the new House of Vans park in Brooklyn, so I decided to go.

The House of Vans is a private indoor and outdoor park owned by the very successful shoe company. Since it’s private not everyone can skate it usually. I think it was nice for them to open up the space for this donation drive event. Being able to skate and see this park was probably a big draw for a lot of the attendees. Plus they have pool skating there, and according to the documentary, ‘Deathbowl to Downtown’ Kessler and other skaters brought that California type skating toNew York City.

Probably the most positive thing about this event was that people showed up for it, and a lot of older skaters did too. I am a spring chicken compared to some of the guys I saw. And it was a high energy skate jam for a memory of someone they cared deeply about. I think people just skating was a good statement.

They had bands playing too, but I focused mostly on the skating. I think I learned a lesson, in that it’s okay to be a spectator at events. I tried to skate and got nervous from it being so crowded. I did not hurt myself, but did get in some people’s way. I am not at ease in crowded parks, and there would have been no shame to simply watch the good skaters. People that cut me off or skate faster than me are not jerks, they are just better skaters, and I should recognize that I don’t need to prove myself in a crowded park. I think it’s safer to avoid skating in super crowded parks or at events. Since my skate time is limited, most days I should go to the parks and not events. But this was a special occasion.

From going to parks regularly for the past few years I’m starting to know skaters here.  I noticed and said hello to at least 10 skaters if not more.  For about half an hour I skated a little flatland area with some of the crew from the Forest Park skate park. I like feeling part of something outside of work and I think that is healthy. I was at the Andy Kessler Memerial from about 5:30 to 8:00 and I’m glad I went.

Now to shift gears and talk about the great workshop I went to today. I few weeks ago I looked up Gotham Writer’s on the internet. I found a workshop for Sunday August 7 and thought why not, I have Sundays off. I realized that I have not been instructed in writing since I was in undergrad over a decade ago. Also I noted that since I started writing my blog a few years ago I stopped writing fiction or essays. I have not sent anything out in years. So my ambition was to take this class and then write fiction or something to send out from what I learned. This workshop met and exceeded my expectations.

Early on the teacher, Michael Phillips, explained the structure of the story. In my own words it starts with the everyday of someone’s life, then something significant happens, a goal or problem to solve is set and steps taken to achieve that goal or handle the problem, goal is resolved or problem solved in a positive or negative way, and it ends with how this happening changed the character’s life. I wrote down the terminology and took notes, but I feel I grasp it now. I’m sure I learned this in my college creative writing classes, but now it makes sense. I feel on my previous attempts at fiction I simply wrote in a way that I thought stories should work. I’m hoping with a better understanding of structure I can plan out and execute a story better. That in itself was worth the price of the one day course to me.

One coincidence made me happy early on in the day. The teacher heartily recommended “Writing Fiction’ by Janet Burroway. I already have this from my undergrad creative writing class. In that college class we read parts of it that pertained to the different weeks of the course, but my memory is hazy. I really think that I may have a better grasp of learning this stuff now. So I will read this book cover to cover and see if it helps.

The teacher put a lot of time explaining ‘sensory detail’ which is to describe sight, sound, taste, smell, and feel. On the exercise for this I did not do well. I concentrate from moving the story from point A to B, and don’t think of how a particular action would feel if experienced.

There was a plethora of information given, and maybe to try to retain it, in a few days I will type out the notes. I won’t bother to write out my exercise parts, but I will write down what the scenarios were. They did make one think. Such as one of the later exercise on point of view was this: Write a scene of a person getting mugged from and objective  viewpoint, write the  same scene from the perspective of the victim, and lastly write the scene from the  perspective of the robber giving him some redeeming quality.

I found with the ten minute time frames these were difficult especially with my awful hand writing. But if I typed all the other notes, and those ten or so practice exercises I could practice on my own time.

The practice writing was good, and afterwards people would read what they wrote. I read a few, and got feedback. Listening to others was interesting too, and I realized on a few that I didn’t fully follow the instructions. So I learned from that too, in that stories are layered. A description of a box in not just words but needs to have a place in the story.

Lastly one advice the teacher had was that in a short story every sentence needs to move the story along and is an important part of the story. So published short stories can go through 50 to a 100 revisions by the author. For my blog I never revise. A long time has passed since I wrote something to send out. The stuff I got on hackwriters I revised those pieces perhaps 5 or six times. So my new goal is to write a first draft of a story on my vacation next week, and then revise it no less than 50 times. On revisions though I won’t do my usual typo check and slight tweaking, but change scene orders, delete and add, and try to make it the best I can do.

This weekend was good because I kept busy, so I’ll book up my time and plan out my weekends better. In fall maybe I’ll set up a weekly class of some kind, perhaps with Gathom Writer’s.

That’s all.


July heat wave was no fun.

Blogging twice a week has proven to be tough for me. More than a week has passed since I wrote my last one. To be honest I might not have enough ideas or creativity to pull off updating twice a week. I’m not sure what to even blog about now. I think I’ll complain, complaining sometimes draws attention to a person, so if I have nothing substantial to contribute to the blogging world, I can always complain. On this entry I’ll blog about the heat wave we had last week.

I remember as a tween or teenager in Baltimore County one of my neighborhood skate friends asked me why I wore a turtleneck on a blazing summer day. I did not think of it as weird until he pointed it out, it was one of my favorite things to wear. Basically I didn’t mind sweating or the heat too much.  Throughout my teenage years in Baltimore County or the Toledo Ohio area I would be out all day on summer days. High heat and humidity did not bother me at all.

A couple of decades and about fifty pounds of extra weight has definitely changed my relationship with summer temperatures. All of last week it was hot, and I didn’t want to be outside much at all. On Thursday I worked late and had my lunch at around 3. The line for the bus going back to mainland Queens was long. Normally that time of day there is not a line for the bus, and I gathered that it was too hot for the beach goers, they were all going back to Queens or Brooklyn to their air conditioners and fans. The temperature peeked on Friday and was recorded to over a 100 degrees. On my lunch break that day I literally was sweating and had a hard time breathing just going to get a bite to eat on my lunch break.

Our little air conditioner in our apartment was taxed to the point of being useless and the extra fans just seemed to be circulating warm air. My sleep was erratic, and it even effected my mood, I was not my usual cherry self.

On Sunday I made plans with my skateboard meetup group to skate Astoria at 9 am. I did make it there, which I’m proud of because I usually sleep in way too much on the weekends. At 9 am on Sunday it was hot. My skating was worse than usual. I fell hard 3 times. I’m not sure if I was not awake enough or the heat effected me. I completely soaked a shirt, and I drank a large bottle of water and a vitamin water. By noon or earlier I was done with my session.  It rained lightly after that. When I got home from skating I showered, and then took a 2 hour nap.

Monday it really rained and the temperature finally cooled down.  On both Tuesday and Wednesday night I skated for about an hour and a half after work, basically until it got dark. On both of these evening sessions I had so much more fun than when I skated in the heat the past few times.

I have realized that I am sensitive to the heat. Maybe it’s the medication I take, or from carrying a few extra pounds, but I do not think I should be skating or doing activity when it is in the high 90’s. The last thing I need is a heat stroke. So I’ll try the early morning sessions again, and will enjoy the evening sessions. I don’t think I should be skating during the hot part of the day. Also August is usually the hottest month of the year.

This is kind of a disappointment, all through winter I looked forward to when I could skate regularly, and now summer is telling me my limitations. I guess I’ll aim for really concentrating on skating in fall, that is definitely the time I’m most comfortable and is my favorite season.


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